Plan Of My Life

I have to apply for the studying abroad by Feb. 1.
I have little time...

I wanna master Chinese!!!!!（Of course English too.）

This is wat I rly wanna do now. But I already lost 2 years in my past.
First one was the 1 year which I was in a cram skool.
The other one was the hospitalization.
I learned a lot from those 2 years so I dont think I lost sth...
However, Society consider my those 2 years as a "lost year".
I wanna apply the scholarship of Taiwan goverment and study abroad in Taiwan
for 1 year not using the system of AIU but I wanna rest the AIU for one year and study Chinese.

Am I stupid, do u think??
I rly wanna do. My parents said they will support me so I can do wat I rly want.
I rly feel thax to them.
But, if I lost 3 years,,, Can I get a job??
I dont know wat kind of job I wanna do in my future yet.
Is it too late??

I will apply for the AIU ASAP system anyway...
OMG,,,I have a lot lot lot of things that I wanna do now!!!!!!!

I hav no time~~~;-(
Wat should I do?!?!? I feel scared whenever I think 'bout my future.