I need help

Tmr, I gotta go back to Akita.
However, I dont wanna go back there. I rly wanna stay my hometown.
I dont have friends there, no real friends there.
I cant rly trust anybody there.

U know, I dont have to take the winter program definitely.
Can I stay here, then??
I know it would be hard for me to take Algebra in Spring or Fall semester.
Coz, Im very bad at it, so it is very good chance to take it in winter program.

If I took it in winter, I can concentrate on my work.
However, I dont think I can put up with the loneliness for 'bout 1 month and half.

Is it coz Im selfish that I cant trust anybody around me there??
My good friends had gone far far away.
They r not beside me.

Int'l students in AIU r nice to me but it is hard to keep in touch w them
coz there curriculum r very different. I have friends somewhere like Sendai, Tokyo, Yamagata, Hokkaido...but not in Akita!!!

Wat r friends??
Wat is friendship??

Am I thinking too much?? Too serious??
Should I be more optimistic??

But,,,How??
How can I be optimistic under such a situation??
I dont have a person whom I can rely on from deep in my heart.

I need help.
Someone, Please help me.
I dont wanna go back to AIU. I wanna leave there 4ever.