A Letter

I got a letter from one of my American friends.
He wrote　5 pages!! I was really happy!! (His handwriting was a little bit hard to read though lol)

He has been at my university since December of last year.
We are good friends. We still keep in touch with each other.

He let me know about how he and some other American friends are doing these days. The letter reminds me of the time we shared in AIU for about one year. In the letter, he said:
"I want to come to Japan...It seems being in Japan for such a long time has put me behind. I would never take it back though,...
So many things have changed, and some times it makes me sad."

I really really can understand his feeling. I felt pain in my heart.
It is the thing that I feel now exactly.

Coz the past things can be our past properly,
Coz our rememberance can be our memory undoubtedly,
Coz we can forget pain we felt before,

We humans can live.


Even if saying "good-bye" was heartbreaking, we would be able to live coz we know we would meet a lot of new people in the future.
Even if I am having a hard time now, I will still be able to live coz I can look forward to happiness in the future.

Im really scared of the changes.
I always feel scared ...

Yet, we cannot stay here forever.
We have to change.
In this three-dimensional world, time goes only one way.
Nobody can take the past back. We all gotta go ahead.

Such a common knowledge, such a thing which everyone knows,,,

My head understands it but my heart cannot accept....
How painful it is, how sad it is, how hard it is...

I really feel that,
I am very happy that I could have such great friends all over the world.
I wanna believe that there is an "everlasting thing" in the world.
This feeling of mine is eternal.

I wanna be with you guys forever.
I wanna be your good friend forever.
Forever...