The Last Day of 2007

Thx 4 ur everything in this year.

To tell the truth, it was very very bad year.
Provably, this year was one of the worst years Ive ever had before.

At the very beginning of this year, I got an unknown disease. I was hospitalized and took a very very painful surgery. Coz I was absent from school for 'bout 3 months, I had to take EAP3 w freshmen. I was behind my old classmates. I spend rly rly hard time during Spring semester.
I had a trouble w an American guy. I had to say too much to him. It was very frustrating!!

During the summer vacation, I had a very bad headache spell. It was the worst one. I added "Level 5" in my headache level list. I was almost dying...

After the SV, my best friend in AIU went back to her hometown coz she was depressed. I didn't know what to do. And my body condition wasn't good as usual. I was absent from skool many times. I had my wisdom teeth pulled out. Es, left one was terrible. My face was swallon very much. I had a high fever. It took 'bout 1 week to recover from it.

I was suffering from relationships w my "friends". I was asking "Wat r friedns????". I don't get exact answers yet. I felt that I had no place that I could exist. In Skool, in SV committee, in SLC club, in Classes, in anywhere....Anyway it was very hard to stay AIU. The best friend came to c me after the final exams and told me that she decided she will leave the skool. Coz she found her own way so I should be glad to hear that. However, my heart sank. Half of me felt rly excited for her, but the half felt alone. I donno how I should live without her. I felt that there was nobody to help me. I came back to my hometown asap. But just before that, I found out that my left eye also had sth wrong. Damn....Why? Why? Why?

How can I be Positive???
How can I be Active??

I rly rly rly wish that next year will be very very very good year!!!!

Winter Vacation in my Hometown

Im in my hometown now :-)
I came back here on 23 Sun. Ah, it is rly good that I dont have to do anything eveyday lol

Oh,　wait!!

I do house work everyday!! But I dont have to study very very hard, huh??
These days, I just sleep a lot, play the piano, study chinese, do housework etc etc...
Ha, I do a lot anyway!! lol

I decided to study Chinese everyday and write a blog in Chinese as much as I can<3
It is rly fun to study chinese<3>
as I wanted. Therefore Im so happy.

I finished watching Taiwanese drama "Romantic Princess".
It was rly rly interesting!! The main casts were my favorite singers.
Angela Chang, Wu Zun, and Calvin were gr8!!
Im watching it again now!! :p

Today, I downloaded many musics from the internet.
U know, it is very hard to get Taiwanese or Chinese music in Japan.
American music is famous and we can easily get some American or British music in Japan.
However, there are not so many Taiwanese or Chinese CDs in Japan.
I found some good websites to download Taiwanese or Chinese music freely :-D

I downloaded many music!! Fahrenhite's and Angela Chang's music.
I want more~but there was sth worng in my computer.
Damn... Ill try again tmr :-)

Well, one of my high skool friends r gonna come to c me~<3
Im very looking forward to her coming :D

What's done cannot be undone.

Yep, I know that.

Damn it!! Wat the heck did I do?
I rly regret everything I did to ya, dear. U know, t'was all my fault.

Im sry my friend.

Would u forgive me?
Can u be my friend again?
May I stay by ur side again?

Whenever I c u, I wanna talk and c ur smile:-)
I dont c ur smile for a long time, dear.
Did I make u so sad?
I took ur smile from ya, huh?

R u ok?
Rly sry.
Can u smile at me again?

I cant drive u away from my mind.
I tried not to think 'bout u, but I couldn't.
U know, tmr is the very important day 4 us.
We r gonna have a big final exam of Int'l relationship course.

Yet, I cant concentrate on my work.
I've never felt like this.
Even when I thought 'bout the person who I liked, I've never felt like this.

But That is all I deserve it.

I still believe that my decision would be the best 4 u.
I believe that u would manage ur stuff w all of ur strength.

Please understand.
This is the way I can show my friendship to u.
I cant show it in any other way now.
Sry, girly.

I luv u.

Priority

Was I wrong?? Y should I suffer from many things these days??

Im down very much...but y??

Coz,,,
I can't manage my time properly these days?
I couldn't write good essay this time and I have to rewrite it?
I don't think I can get A nor B in SPC class any more?
My body condition is bad as usual?

Yea...kind of...
All of them r also the reasons y Im so down.

Yet, Sth is different.
It's not the true reason!!!

I kinda feel...I lost very important thing. I hurted u a lot,right?
It was hard to leave u alone.
It was painful to say those things 2 u who was crying.

Wat did I do?? I should notice more earlier.
Am I ur real friend??
Good friend shouldn't act like that, did they?!

If I wanted to say "Im ur good friend."
Then, I should think about u seriously more.
I should really think about ur future as a friend.

But I didn't do so...
As a result, what happened??
C?? How stupid I was!!!! Shit!!!!!!
I was thinking just about myself. I said "everything is for u."

Ha!!!! Shut up!!!

I just didn't wanna be alone.
I just wanted to be "a good person."
I just, just want u to be by my side.

I should release u earlier.
I should be ur good friend.

I'm very sorry,my dear.
Everything is my fault.