What Is Sign Language For Me?

I am really interested in Communication. That is why I would love to learn many languages such as English, Chinese, and Russian. I think that Sign Language is also one of those languages. In Sign Language, sound is not so important but the hands is important. Facial expressions and mouth movements are also necessary. However, languages are languages.

There are some people who say Languages are just tools for communication. Yes, but I think that it is not just a tool but a vital thing for every one. I cannot convey my feelings or opinions to other people without languages. Language is a culture itself. If I look at a language, I can get much information about people who are using the language, and their lives, and the area or country in which the language is used. I know that Language has a big power to move people and even a country.

I knew of the existence of some kind of language for deaf people before I started to learn Sign Language in our club. However, I have never learned any of them except how to express my name in Japanese Sign Language. I learned it when I was an elementary school student. There was a finger letter list on the back wall of my class room. I had never seen people who cannot hear or speak until I joined the Sign Language Club. Actually, I was planning to set up another kind of Sign Language Club which was for people who want to do ”Sign Language Chorus”. I submitted an application form for a new club activity. At that time, a boy who is a present leader in our club was going to establish a Sign Language Club as well as me. However, he was planning to learn Sign Language as a language. At first, I could not imagine learning Sign Language as if it were a foreign language. The reason why we combined our clubs was to not make two Sign Language clubs because it would be very confusing if there were two sign language clubs.

When I started to learn sign languages: ASL and JSL, I found that Sign Languages are significant and very interesting. I felt that it was very interesting to learn them from the basics. First, I was surprised at the big differences between ASL and JSL. I was thinking that they were the same or quite similar. However, except finger letters, they are very different. When I noticed their differences, I truly realized that Sign Languages are real languages.

I go to Akita city to a club there with some club members. I have the opportunity to talk with deaf people. It is very difficult for me to express my feelings, to explain what I want to say in Sign Language. Even though all of the members there are Japanese, sometimes we cannot understand each other. At first, I was frustrated with my poor Sign Language skill and thought that I could not master it. However, the more I participated in each activity, the more I realized what is most important. The most important thing is my attitude. In AIU, a lot of students and teachers came from many different countries. Our common language is usually English. For me, English is necessary especially in AIU. Yet, I don’t have confidence in my English skill. So I couldn’t talk with them much at first. However, I was eager to know their cultures and their thoughts about things; I tried to communicate with them as much as I could. Now I have many friends all over the world. I remembered this experience. Although I cannot use the language, I can communicate with people as long as I want to talk with them.

If I could master Sign Language I would be able to communicate with people more smoothly. I want to ask many people what they feel and think about things I am curious about. Maybe they have different thoughts or feelings from mine.

I can hear, speak, and see. I want to use anything I can use to communicate with people impartially. I want to contribute to society if somebody needs my skills.

Taking Responsibilities

I have never minded...I didnt care... I didnt even look at....

Now finally noticed the importance of them.

Im going to driving skool these days. I started to go to Matsugazsaki driving skool from 11th of this month. Since then, I go there every day. The system of the skool is kinda severe. I have to take many lectures and practice driving a car w professional driver. I have two big paper exams. One is to get a learner's permit and the other one is to get a license. In addition to these exams, of course I gotta take driving tests two or three times. I already bought a book to study for the paper exams. It costed 1,000yen. Until I go to the skool, I have never imagined that all of the car drivers took every classes and lectures in driving skool as well.

I have heard that in the US or other countries' systems of driving skool r more easy and simple. At first I was jealous to my friends who came from those countries and already have licenses. My skool is too severe, I thought.

However, the more I learn about traffic rule and driving, the more I get scared. I was thinking that driving a car is not such a big deal. Just step the accelerator or the break, or engage the clutch. Yet, I was completely wrong. It was very difficult to adjust those pedals. Also, timing is very important. I have to look at not only just in front of me and my car but also further away to get more information which is necessary to avoid serious accidents. I also have to look at sign board such as "Right of Way for Pedestrians"or "Halt sign" and so forth. However, my sight r becoming narrow whenever I drive a car.

Before I practice driving a car, I always do an image training many times, but during the driving there r no room for thinking about 1seconds later. Im always in a hurry. I check right and left side, then also look at the room mirror, but still dangerous. My engine stopped five times in the middle of the crossing road the day before yesterday. I lost countenance and was get into a panic. The reason y the engine stopped was that I mistakenly used third gear instead of low gear. They seemed similar so I didnt notice the difference. Timimg and Adjustment r very important but difficult. I always cant change the gear from low to second smoothly. I will take an examination to get a learner's permit. Tmr is the day of evaluation by my teacher. I hope I can pass it without any probs...

I was a pedestrian or a rider of a bicycle for a long time.21 years exactly.　I have ridden on a car many times of course, but not on the driver's seat. I have never controlled the vehicle which has very big power which can destroy things made by concrete or even can kill many people at once. I took 10 lectures about traffic rules already at my driving skool. It seems troublesome but I think these r very helpful and valuable. I didnt know that I didnt know many of the meaning of traffic signs. I didnt care rather than I didnt know, actually.

Driving a car means I have to take responsibility if anything serious happened. To tell the truth, Im scared of it. Car is very attractive thing coz it has very strong power and high speed. People r tend to yearning for both of them. However, I decided that I will remember it has risks whenever I drive it.

Now Im practicing driving the manual car not the automatic car. It is very tricky and difficult. However, I will do my best. Coz I wanna take my family es, my grandma and grandpa to somewhere in gratitude. I will drive a car and go to many places w them as they used to take me before. If I could drive, they can drink and sleep. They dont have to worry about anything. If they were happy, I would be happy too. I rly wanna return a favor. I will continue my part-time job as long as I can.

I will leave Japan soon. Provably from this fall, I will study abroad. Before that and after that too, of course, I wanna do what they want me to do. To go shopping often w my grandma is my dream. I will buy anything what she wants. They r getting older and older so I wanna be w them as much as I can.
I rly need the driving license!! I gotta get it!!

No Promises

I dont know my feeling.
I dont understand myself the most.
Just I dont want to let u go. I just need u here.

No promises.

"Friendship" doesnt contain any powers
To force u to stay here.

I dont wanna run away. I dont wanna resist u.
I wanna stay by ur side forever.

No promises.

I cant bind u. U r free...
Free from any restraints.

I am restricted by ur existence.
When is my turn? Wouldnt u notice? Wouldnt u release me?

I will just say "OK".
That is the only thing I can say now. Not "Yes"but "No" neither.
Im laying on between them.

Vague, Subtle, Ambiguous, Obscure, Dubious, Fuzzy,Gray....

It is complicated so very simple.
It seems very easy but actually a lil bit difficult.

Is this a diplomatic game? Should I maneuver myself through ur words?

Wanna be the special.
Wanna be the only one.
Only for u.

When would u realize? Or maybe u already realized,
and just u r pretending that u dont know anything at all...

How long do I have to wait for u?
I should be patient more than anyone else. Until when?

I just donno u and I.
I just wanna be w u.

Can I have ur call tonite?
Can u talk w me? Can u send me an email today?

Do u think of me at least once in a day?

What is the "best friend" ??

I dont understand.
I dont understand.

No promises.

Set My Independent Day

The words I wrote above is my slogan of this year. lol

I gotta face to myself without running away.
I must not depend on other people so soon.
I shouldn't talk many things to other people es in my Uni...blab blab blab~~:p

A trouble with a person at the end of January was the trigger to think about myself.
I have noticed that the weakness and the durtiness of myself for a long time but I just tried to pretend that I didn't recognize them. Yet now, I gotta fight with them finally. About 1 month has passed since then. I'm seriously facing to myself, I think. Yea...Anyway I'm very sorry for everyone who I took their time for this troubles to...

I will ensure my style.
I'm gonna control myself who is easy to be negative and feel alone to get along with myself.
I gotta think about the distance with others physically and also mentally.(es, in my uni, many people have a paralyzed "friends" sense. Btw, What r friends? What is friendship? I wrote an essay in Composition1 class before but I still can't get exact answer...maybe I cannot get EXACT answer coz there r no answers...they r depend on person to person...maybe??)
I gotta think about how to express my feeling, opinions, and thoughts.
I gotta think about how to have objective and diversified point of views...blab blab blab...

What I wanna say is,,, there r a lot of things that I gotta do.
However, I shouldn't be in a hurry.
Consider about myself and my life more deeply.
Talk with people and share infomation more.
I feel meeting with people and talking with people are really precious.
Wanna learn more!!!!
TAKE ACTIONS FOR MY FUTURE~:-D

The Boy Who Cried Wolf

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The Boy Who Cried Wolf, illustrated by Milo Winter in a 1919 Aesop anthology
For other uses, see Cry Wolf (disambiguation).

The Boy Who Cried Wolf, also known as The Shepherd Boy and the Wolf, is a fable attributed to Aesop (210 in Perry's numbering system).Created In 1673.[1] The protagonist of the fable is a bored shepherd boy who entertained himself by calling out "wolf". Nearby villagers who came to his rescue found that the alarms were false and that they'd wasted their time. When the boy was actually confronted by a wolf, the villagers did not believe his cries for help and the wolf ate the flock. In some fairy-tale versions, when the villagers ignore him the wolf eats him, and in other versions he simply mocks the boy, saying now no one will help him, and that it serves him right for playing tricks.
The moral is stated at the end of the fable as:


"Even when liars tell the truth, they are never believed. The liar will lie once, twice, and then perish when he tells the truth."


In reference to this tale, the phrase to "cry wolf" has long been a common idiom in English, described in Brewer's Dictionary of Phrase and Fable [2], and modern English dictionaries [3][4].
In the American intelligence community, "crying wolf syndrome" is labeled as a condition where threat analysts are reluctant to report on an imminent threat, such as a terrorist attack, due to the fact that if the threat is unfounded or greatly inflated, future threats will not be believed.

Credibility

International relation is becoming complicated these days.
The technology of Mass Media, Internet, and Transpotation are improving.
However, the relationship with other countries are going into recession.

A country is composed of people.
People have a power to move a country.
Thus, International Relationship is same as the relationship with other people.
All the people in the world may experience the conflicts with other people.

In 1950s, the United States insisted "Domino Theory" which is that communism seemed monolithic during the Vietnam War and they really wanted to create strong "credibility" which is that the United States tried to make US ally and US people have confidence that their willingness to commitment is for freedom and justice. Then, many people supported the United States based on the credibility.

"Credibility" is very strong but extremely weak.
U can move vast people who trust u. They will help u and support u as long as they believe the "credibility".

The reason why it is weak is...once u betrayed the people, they will against u.
"Credibility" is very fragile and it is hard to create again.
Maybe, u cant reconstruct one thoroughly anymore.
"Betrayal" won't be forgiven. Never!!!!
The people who supported u once, will bare their fangs to u.
They will be the most dangerous and the most fearful emeny for u.
Again, they will never forgive u, and will vow revenge on u.
It is too late, too late to regret after ur betrayal.
U will deserve it.

"It is no use crying over spilt milk."

No one would help u anymore, u know??

C??

They r laughing at u. lol

Delete

I shouldn't c u at that time.
I shouldn't say "hi" to u.
I shouldn't be a friends of urs.
If I didn't c u at that time...

Now, don't hesitate.
I shoulda pressed the delete key
On my key board in my mind.
I shoulda deleted u and all of my memory 'bout u.
Completely,
Definitely,
Thoroughly.

Then, I never c u even in my dreams.
Even if I saw u in the real life,
I don't have to pretend myself anymore.
I can finally live for myself honestly.

If I could do like this really...
Not just a wish...

If it is always like this,
I don't need "feeling".
Coz I have "feeling", I feel happiness, sadness,and
Pain in my heart, huh?

Then, I dare not to have it.
I prefer to scarifies happiness feeling
Rather than to feel pain in my heart.

Whether I feel pain or happiness,
It doesn't matter for u, right?
I know.

Even though I feel strong pain,
the sun rise up in the morning and
down in the night,
Every day.
That is the way of life,
Way of life of human beings.

I am just a woman
struggling in this darkness.

Plan Of My Life

I have to apply for the studying abroad by Feb. 1.
I have little time...

I wanna master Chinese!!!!!（Of course English too.）

This is wat I rly wanna do now. But I already lost 2 years in my past.
First one was the 1 year which I was in a cram skool.
The other one was the hospitalization.
I learned a lot from those 2 years so I dont think I lost sth...
However, Society consider my those 2 years as a "lost year".
I wanna apply the scholarship of Taiwan goverment and study abroad in Taiwan
for 1 year not using the system of AIU but I wanna rest the AIU for one year and study Chinese.

Am I stupid, do u think??
I rly wanna do. My parents said they will support me so I can do wat I rly want.
I rly feel thax to them.
But, if I lost 3 years,,, Can I get a job??
I dont know wat kind of job I wanna do in my future yet.
Is it too late??

I will apply for the AIU ASAP system anyway...
OMG,,,I have a lot lot lot of things that I wanna do now!!!!!!!

I hav no time~~~;-(
Wat should I do?!?!? I feel scared whenever I think 'bout my future.

I need help

Tmr, I gotta go back to Akita.
However, I dont wanna go back there. I rly wanna stay my hometown.
I dont have friends there, no real friends there.
I cant rly trust anybody there.

U know, I dont have to take the winter program definitely.
Can I stay here, then??
I know it would be hard for me to take Algebra in Spring or Fall semester.
Coz, Im very bad at it, so it is very good chance to take it in winter program.

If I took it in winter, I can concentrate on my work.
However, I dont think I can put up with the loneliness for 'bout 1 month and half.

Is it coz Im selfish that I cant trust anybody around me there??
My good friends had gone far far away.
They r not beside me.

Int'l students in AIU r nice to me but it is hard to keep in touch w them
coz there curriculum r very different. I have friends somewhere like Sendai, Tokyo, Yamagata, Hokkaido...but not in Akita!!!

Wat r friends??
Wat is friendship??

Am I thinking too much?? Too serious??
Should I be more optimistic??

But,,,How??
How can I be optimistic under such a situation??
I dont have a person whom I can rely on from deep in my heart.

I need help.
Someone, Please help me.
I dont wanna go back to AIU. I wanna leave there 4ever.

Consideration

Today I’d like to think about a question from a friend of mine.
He is from Britain. His Japanese is almost perfect!!
He is like Japanese!! lol We r rly good friends!!

Well, He is gonna join a Japanese Speech contest in Britain!!! It is rly amazing!!!
Congratulation~~~~!!!! :-D

This is like a case study. Imagine…

"You're working at a hotel on the reception.

One day a customer comes and gives you parcel to send on his/her behalf.
However, the address is written unclearly and you cannot read it.

You worry it might get lost in the post.

What do you do?"

Moreover!!

"If you aren’t working in the hotel, what would u do??
If it was not a customer but a stranger, what would u do??
It is your job so you would talk in polite way but if it was a stranger, what kind of attitude would u take??
Are your behavior and feeling rly same??"

I won't write my answer here coz I wanna know YOUR own answers.

Are there any differences between Chinese people and Japanese people??
What do you think??

Psychological Prediction

This is very interesting!! :p Try to do this everyone<3
I was predicted by this Ojisan lol

Direction: U can move right, left, up, and down.
He will count some numbers so u can move same as the numbers.
U cant move diagonally. X-( Ok??
R u ready?? Let's get started!! :p

The Last Day of 2007

Thx 4 ur everything in this year.

To tell the truth, it was very very bad year.
Provably, this year was one of the worst years Ive ever had before.

At the very beginning of this year, I got an unknown disease. I was hospitalized and took a very very painful surgery. Coz I was absent from school for 'bout 3 months, I had to take EAP3 w freshmen. I was behind my old classmates. I spend rly rly hard time during Spring semester.
I had a trouble w an American guy. I had to say too much to him. It was very frustrating!!

During the summer vacation, I had a very bad headache spell. It was the worst one. I added "Level 5" in my headache level list. I was almost dying...

After the SV, my best friend in AIU went back to her hometown coz she was depressed. I didn't know what to do. And my body condition wasn't good as usual. I was absent from skool many times. I had my wisdom teeth pulled out. Es, left one was terrible. My face was swallon very much. I had a high fever. It took 'bout 1 week to recover from it.

I was suffering from relationships w my "friends". I was asking "Wat r friedns????". I don't get exact answers yet. I felt that I had no place that I could exist. In Skool, in SV committee, in SLC club, in Classes, in anywhere....Anyway it was very hard to stay AIU. The best friend came to c me after the final exams and told me that she decided she will leave the skool. Coz she found her own way so I should be glad to hear that. However, my heart sank. Half of me felt rly excited for her, but the half felt alone. I donno how I should live without her. I felt that there was nobody to help me. I came back to my hometown asap. But just before that, I found out that my left eye also had sth wrong. Damn....Why? Why? Why?

How can I be Positive???
How can I be Active??

I rly rly rly wish that next year will be very very very good year!!!!

Winter Vacation in my Hometown

Im in my hometown now :-)
I came back here on 23 Sun. Ah, it is rly good that I dont have to do anything eveyday lol

Oh,　wait!!

I do house work everyday!! But I dont have to study very very hard, huh??
These days, I just sleep a lot, play the piano, study chinese, do housework etc etc...
Ha, I do a lot anyway!! lol

I decided to study Chinese everyday and write a blog in Chinese as much as I can<3
It is rly fun to study chinese<3>
as I wanted. Therefore Im so happy.

I finished watching Taiwanese drama "Romantic Princess".
It was rly rly interesting!! The main casts were my favorite singers.
Angela Chang, Wu Zun, and Calvin were gr8!!
Im watching it again now!! :p

Today, I downloaded many musics from the internet.
U know, it is very hard to get Taiwanese or Chinese music in Japan.
American music is famous and we can easily get some American or British music in Japan.
However, there are not so many Taiwanese or Chinese CDs in Japan.
I found some good websites to download Taiwanese or Chinese music freely :-D

I downloaded many music!! Fahrenhite's and Angela Chang's music.
I want more~but there was sth worng in my computer.
Damn... Ill try again tmr :-)

Well, one of my high skool friends r gonna come to c me~<3
Im very looking forward to her coming :D

What's done cannot be undone.

Yep, I know that.

Damn it!! Wat the heck did I do?
I rly regret everything I did to ya, dear. U know, t'was all my fault.

Im sry my friend.

Would u forgive me?
Can u be my friend again?
May I stay by ur side again?

Whenever I c u, I wanna talk and c ur smile:-)
I dont c ur smile for a long time, dear.
Did I make u so sad?
I took ur smile from ya, huh?

R u ok?
Rly sry.
Can u smile at me again?

I cant drive u away from my mind.
I tried not to think 'bout u, but I couldn't.
U know, tmr is the very important day 4 us.
We r gonna have a big final exam of Int'l relationship course.

Yet, I cant concentrate on my work.
I've never felt like this.
Even when I thought 'bout the person who I liked, I've never felt like this.

But That is all I deserve it.

I still believe that my decision would be the best 4 u.
I believe that u would manage ur stuff w all of ur strength.

Please understand.
This is the way I can show my friendship to u.
I cant show it in any other way now.
Sry, girly.

I luv u.

Priority

Was I wrong?? Y should I suffer from many things these days??

Im down very much...but y??

Coz,,,
I can't manage my time properly these days?
I couldn't write good essay this time and I have to rewrite it?
I don't think I can get A nor B in SPC class any more?
My body condition is bad as usual?

Yea...kind of...
All of them r also the reasons y Im so down.

Yet, Sth is different.
It's not the true reason!!!

I kinda feel...I lost very important thing. I hurted u a lot,right?
It was hard to leave u alone.
It was painful to say those things 2 u who was crying.

Wat did I do?? I should notice more earlier.
Am I ur real friend??
Good friend shouldn't act like that, did they?!

If I wanted to say "Im ur good friend."
Then, I should think about u seriously more.
I should really think about ur future as a friend.

But I didn't do so...
As a result, what happened??
C?? How stupid I was!!!! Shit!!!!!!
I was thinking just about myself. I said "everything is for u."

Ha!!!! Shut up!!!

I just didn't wanna be alone.
I just wanted to be "a good person."
I just, just want u to be by my side.

I should release u earlier.
I should be ur good friend.

I'm very sorry,my dear.
Everything is my fault.

In the times of trouble...

11/18, 2007 Sunday.

I overslept and I was rly in a hurry.
Then, I took a wrong bus :-(
I had to call and changed the appointment of the dentist.
I should be there at 11:30 actually.
The time changed to 3:30 so I had to stay in Akita city until at least 5 or 6.
The wrong bus took me to the Wada sta.
I had to wait for 11:53 train there.
I had to pay extra money which I didnt suppose to pay X-O

Wat a day~!!!!!!!!

It was coooooold and rainy.
Damn...

However, I could meet Ruri in Wada sta.
We talked until the train comes.
The train was not crowded so I could sit down.
I could have enough time to let my back hair down at Starbucks in Akita city.
I could see Kerry who is one of gr8 teachers of AIU there.
I could concentrate on my HW.
I could eat yammyyyyy Hanamaru-Udon 4 my lunch ~<3>

After I went to the dentist, I walked back to the Akita sta.
I could take a bus which comes back to Goshono right away.
It was snowyyyyyyy :-D
I LUV snow very much!!!!
LALALA~~let it snow, let it snow, let it snow~~:p

White snow seems like that it covers up every thing.
I feel like that it would bring a whole new world to me.
And then I imagine that "Im not the one whom I used to be anymore!!!!!! hahaha :-D"

It seemed to be a bad day. It could be.
Yet, I prefer to say it was a lucky day~!!
Bad day and Good day is close-knit. If I think about the day negatively,
my thoughts would be gravitated deeply in that way.

Even if I had a bustling day, I wanna have time to look up in the sky.
If I thought the day was nonsensical, there would be at least one lil special thing.
I don't care decency. It is trifling!!! Hahaha
If I think everyday is just a worthlessness. Try to get out from such a degradation!!
There would be stupendous things in every single day.
Don't wither~!!

C?? Everything is up to me!!not somebody else.
ATTITUDE, it's rly up to me!!!!!!!!!!!

The show must go on...

Again...

Last night, (11/15/07 Thu) I had a spell of terrible headache again. I remember that I had the same bad spell last year in the AIU dorm around this season too.

I started to feel strange from 1 or 2 o'clock during Compute Literacy class. However, it was the day of weekly test 4, besides there was no bus if I left the class around 2 or 3. The class finished at 3 and I took the 3:40 bus, and came back home at 4 o'clock. I slept a lil bit but at 5:30, AJ came to see me. He came to Akita on Wed from Tokyo and he stayed Akita for only 2 day or so... there was no chance to c him except yesterday. Yet, I was so sick... I could hardly sit down.

After he left my home, I tried to to sleep. However, I couldn't.The headache became worse and worse. So, I called to Mayu who is a good friends of mine. She came to my home. At around 10 o'clock, I gave up to put up with the strong awful pain. Mayu called 119 and an ambulance came. I was taken to the emergency room of the Red Cross Hospital. I felt very bad. I was almost vomiting. During taking the CT scan, it was hard to stay on the bed without moving.

I put on a drip which contains sleeper and medicine for nausea. There are no medicines for my headache. Nobody can tell what it is. There was anything wrong on the CT pics.

Well, "Thank you, Mayu. I feel very sorry but I really appreciate your kindness and friendship. I feel that u r my friend. I need you very much."

Today, I was absent from the Int'l relationship class. I took shower and prepared to go to AIU. However, I felt bad and I gave up... I rly luv that class. I was rly looking forward to attending the class. I gotta review today's' chapter and catch up with the class asap!!!

I slept all day today. But still I feel a lil bit strange and my head has dull pain....Shoot ;-(

I don't know how I should manage this disease.
How long must I be afraid of this?

I watched a TV about headache today. It said that if I had strong headache so often, I would die earlier than other healthy people. Coz, the blood vessels of my brain is getting bad damage lil by lil every time I have headache. I would have cerebral infraction in the future. The percentage is 2 times as much as people who don't have headache.

I feel scared.

These days, I feel rly down mentally. What is worse, my body condition is like this!!

How can I do? I know I have to live as long as I live even though it is hard for me. There are many things that I can't predict, manage, and change in the life. Negative thoughts will cause more bad things. I know but I can't think in positive way now. I can't remember how to smile again. I want something which proves I am here. I need someone who needs me very much. Boys? Girls? Whoever. I don't need one-way feeling anymore. Please give me absolute thing. I know it is difficult to have absolute thing in the life. I know there is nothing which lasts forever in the world. Someone, show me true friendship. I need more. I need more. I can’t be satisfying w anything now.

It's not enough.

I want to believe something or someone as it or she/he is forever. Or, I wanna get away from it all. I wanna go somewhere that nobody knows me.

I'm tired…to live.

The World

It’s easy to control everything in my life.
Coz, in my life, everything is fiction completely.

There is no real.
There is no fact.

The world just exists there.
I clip some part of the world out of the entire world based on my point of view.
I choose some of my feelings for each part and stick them on.
Thus I create my "world" using many those kind of parts.It is just like a mosaic art.
Each person has own mosaic art, own "world".

There are no same "worlds" in this world.

Language is just a way to connect person and person.
Human beings can't recognize the existence of something without words, languages.
As long as the language express some feelings or something, we can share them through the language.
That is, we just live in the limitation of the language which is artificial one.We can't share anything out of the limitation.

After all, people can't understand others and others' "world" exactly.

Simultaneously, others also can't understand me and my "world".
"World" seems to be same for everybody.
That is coz the world is same, I mean the place we exist is only this place.
But, other thing, even concept or feeling of something,All of them are fiction.

If there is a real or fact, this is the only one I can say "It's real."

SHUT UP!!

Hey!!! Shut up!!

What the hell!!! Zip up ur lip. Get off my back!!!

Don't fret 'bout small matters.
Don't behave like a lil baby girl,huh?
Grating...

U know, the Past has passed.
Nob can go back.
U know, the future is in the future.
Nob can predict it. Unless u r a psychic,ha!!

When the shit hits the fan, u always look back the past or worry 'bout the future.
Damn...U r gripping urself by the throat. Tough Shoot!!

Look at the Reality. See?? Where r u??
U live right now, huh?

Shut fuck up, guys!!

I won't be get involved in IT anymore.
I hate myself,HA!!!! I'll quit!! "Shoot or get off the pot!!" ??? Huh,
No thx lol

Stand Up, guys!!

I dont care the past and the future anymore.
I'll kick them out and ride on the now.Serves u right!!

Bad Luck?? HAHAHA
Come on~!! I'll smile it back!! I'll beat it.

Blow away "Negative","Pessmistic"!!
Think logically, Act passionablly. :-D

Open up our heart!! Smile back!! This is the most powerful arms!!!!!!

Ai

Who created “Love” and where was it created? It’s difficult.
Where should the feeling go? Somebody tell me secretly.
Birds can fly in the great blue sky without getting lost.
Where r we gonna go??

The % of Love success is terrible. Always it isn’t accomplished.
Though I love you… This feeling pisses me off
Please go away!! I wanna delete my existence.
How long do I have been thinking like this??
I still expect when I can see you next week.

Fate decided the people whom I should love in my life.
If it’s true, I have better to accept everything that I see everyday.
I know that.
Coz, I’m not like a person who can walk in the middle of a broadway
I often mind my step.

In reality, the biggest problem cannot be helped.
Besides, I wanna see you and be with you. This feeling always pisses me off.
Please go away!! I wanna delete my existence.
How long do I have been thinking like this??

Where r we gonna go?

The % of Love success is terrible. Always it isn’t accomplished.
Though I love you… This feeling pisses me off
Please go away!! I wanna delete my existence.
How long do I have been thinking like this??

In reality, the biggest problem cannot be helped.
Besides, I wanna see you and be with you. This feeling always pisses me off.
Please go away!! I wanna delete my existence.
I still expect when I can see you next week.
Hey, when can we see each other?




My feeling is like this lyric these days.
I donno what should I do anymore. Wat should I do???
Please tell me someone!! Please!!!
I've never thought things turn out like this... How can I know that??
Well, I am very weak coz of this feeling.
Im rly close to U, so I know there is no possibility that u'd have same feeling as mine to me. Never. 0%...
U said like..."If you didnt say, nobody can understand your feeling".
Yea. I know it very well.
That's y I never say my feeling 2 u. I'll never say...Coz
I dont wanna lose u.
Even thou this situation is rly hard 4 me, I have to put up w it.

Coz I luv u.

I wanna be w u 4ever.
I wanna be ur special.
I want u to want me.

Those desires sqweeze my heart.
Am I greedy?? Should I give up?? Should I leave u??
Everything is up to u.
I just cant go anywhere and do anything.

My smile :-) is only 4 u.
U r my first love in my life.